Subtle signs your pregnant (old essay)

There are just a few subtle signs your pregnant, and when you are, you will know. But if you are one of those women who waddle into an E.R. and say, "I'm having really bad cramps, I haven't really had a period in a while and I need to poop." You; A- need to get in touch with yourself, and B- where the hell have you been the last few months?
Some women know instantly and the reaction is something similar to, "You just did what?" or "oops" or only slightly delayed , like, "Yes, I would like some coffee."
For me it was a message from above. After spending the last few years smoking pot and experimenting with various natural psychotropic drugs, I had become an ethereal being on earth. I was so aware of my surroundings and, "my hands, man there just so cool!"
Conception of my daughter came after a magical night of tripping the light fantastic, and though I cannot recall the exact moment of conception, I remember the dream that night.
I was at a Phish concert at the Gorge in George, located in central Washington, the sun had set and there was a great jam going on. I had a friend in a rabbit suit and he was dancing on stage along with the band. During the intermission I was walking along a lit pathway amidst the masses when I saw her. A gleaming ball of ecstasy. A girl in her early twenties in head to toe silver, with glitter dripping off of her. She had wonderful apple cheeks that sparkled like disco balls and trailing behind her were two beautiful, elegant wings made of white feathers, Mylar and glitter. She had a silver mini skirt, silver stockings, silver socks pulled up to her thigh and silver knee-high combat boots. And a bubble wand.
I watched this girl with awe, as she skipped along the heads smiling and stopping to bend slightly and blow bubbles to people. Then she would wink and be off. I watched her and her air of innocence and joy as she passed through the crowd and she started to come my way. Then the girl skipped right over to me, and with a single graceful movement she grabbed both of my boobs in a firm honk,, kissed me on the lips and whispered into my ear, "your pregnant!" and with that the little imp was off on her bubble blowing mission to spread smiles.
Needing a moment to process this epiphany , I took solace in little red velvet chair. Taking a few breaths, I just couldn't digest what was just told to me when, "Hi!"
A small little girl, I'd say about four years old plopped right down next to me. She was a petite little thing, with gigantic blue eyes with mischief in the corners. She stared up at me beaming, and patiently waiting for a response "Hi." I replied.
"Do you like Phish" she asked
"Yeah"
The little girl chirped away as she swung her little feet in her Sunday shoes only stopping to smile until I awoke from the dream feeling good and thoroughly confused.
And then life changed. My tits became sore, my emotions rushed like torrents, and I walked around with a quiet secret that only me, the imp and the child knew for quite sometime. I think that's how the majority of us go about life for the first month of our motherhood. Yes, it may be chaotic and the pressing matters in the forefront may take precedence over the majority of daily life, but in those few quiet moments in the day, that stupid little smile you have, even if you don't really know it, is for you , the imp and the child.